Monday, February 14, 2011

I Can't

I don't think I can do this
The urge is gonna win
I'm just not strong enough
And I want to give in
--
I know that I shouldn't
I know I should fight
But it's all just too much
Especially tonight
--
There's too much heartache
Too much pain
And it hurts too much
To try and maintain
--
I just want to cut
See the blood running free
So I'll know my heart's beating
Inside of me
--
Or else burn myself
Let the blister rise
Then pop it and with it
All my anguish dies
--
Or if I could just smoke
It would at least reduce the need
Maybe long enough
For something else to intercede
--
But I can't cut
I can't burn
I can't smoke
I only yearn
--
So for now I'm stuck here
I can't even sleep
So I lie in my bed
And it hurts, and I weep